Everything is only as it is.

"What a letdown: I’m already 30. When I was 10, I could never imagine what I would be like in my 30’s, but when I stand in front of the mirror, now I cannot help but see the dirty old man looking back at me. My only saving grace is that my mental age has not changed a bit. I am never bored, I never find myself with too much free time, just like when I was in junior high, there are tons of things I want to get and want to do. Most of these things are products of my imagination, and are thus unattainable, but nevertheless I hope that I stay this way until the day I die."